Lately....

I am a painting zombie
no sleep, dark circles
living through nights is exhausting and lonely
but it forces work which doesn't get done otherwise
...the day is full of distractions

Lately....

I have been living the little artist
the starving one with money only for what is actually needed
peddling my own creativity without much success
per suing passion....for once
I am the happiest I've been in years...right here, right now

with no friends that live close
sleepless nights
too much ginger ale
dried paint all over my skin
barefoot
no make up
ripped clothing full of stains
and all my favorite albums playing all day long

I'm not completely fulfilled (who ever is)
there is so much more that I long for
but if I have just this for the next little while
I'll find satisfaction within my feelings of being so in between

between jobs
between friends
between days and nights
between thoughts
and between loves
...almost between lives

turning what was the last two years of my life, into a little bit of the past and a whole lot of the future